My brother and I are transferring back to the retail store near our house after he passes his driver’s test and I am pleased at how effortless the request was; I had been working myself up this whole time under the impression that I would be screwing the place near my school over in the process, but in the grand scheme of things, who was I to continue sacrificing my time and energy into schlepping 14 miles to and back 5 days a week?
My friend who is a waitor recommends getting a server job while there’s a labor shortage, and I might take him up on the offer. If anything, I’ll walk through the mall within walking distance after the transfer process and look for openings then. I could potentially work two jobs during the summer, relegating retail as the 2 day a week fallback and the restaurant as the real growth opportunity. I’ve always believed that I’m not cut out for fast paced food service, but considering the fact that I don’t have any real competition, I have nothing to lose from shooting my shot and botching the first few weeks on the job at 30% capacity.
After seeing how passionately some old guitar friends I met up with discussed repertoire and guitar fingerings, I’ve gotten a new desire to pick up the guitar and brush up my own repertoire to performance level. I initially shot down the idea of having an informal share session like what Wednesday became and showing the boys my pieces, but the idea made me so happy and filled me with such purpose that I realized that I can’t continue shooting myself down. Even if my pieces are humble, they’re accomplishments in their own right and the boys would be nothing but supportive in my endeavors. This falls perfectly in line with what I see myself doing in 5 years and supports my goals to become more musically dexterous.
Stephen Covey talked about self-integrity being the core of good self esteem and a good feeling of self-worth, and the more I imagine myself taking baby steps towards music and Japanese, the more I agree with that sentiment. I laid out a schedule for myself in accordance with Habit 3 but never followed through with it. I’ll try a second time now that my family isn’t here to derail me, and hopefully, I can build one week of good habits that can propel me forward even with the house at full capacity. I want to buy a curtain that would go in front of my desk as a polite yet curt signal of privacy and unavailability; that seemed to work way better than I had imagined at the last place I lived at.